the world is beautiful

So coming home from my Grandmas house out in the desart of NV in to cali, it was the most beautiful drive. the brown landscape most of the time i think can't pass me fast enough looked so beautiful and i just wanted to go get lost in it. now there are white sands and the dunes and this what looks what i think a mini grand canyon would look. it's a remote little road we take off the main path to get there and it's just so pretty.

that day it rained and i was worried about flash floods but it cleared up before we got on the road but the dark clouds where around with rays of light shinning down.

now at one point of the drive i put lay me down on and though the sun was shineing as soon as the song really started playing it started raining out side and as soon as hope it comes soon came on it cleared up it was amazeing to see nature be in tune with my ipod.

this reminds me anyone else when listening to lay me down on head phones is annoyed but not really by that bird in the backround? i love that you can hear it raining in the back round but that bird.. grr lol.

but traveling that part really makes me want to get in a car and just go we past many public lands where your allowed just to go off and wander and i never wanted to do that more in my life go far enough where you can't see the main road and sleep for a night. maybe it would be awesome to really tour like that a trip around the states but idk many places don't have public land like the west dose but i really starting to think i want a trip up north i said this tour i would do it but i didn't trust my self to go by my self but now i do, though i think i found friends that would come with me if we planed that we were going to drive.

over the past few days i done a lot of thinking i changed a bit when i was gone though i'm so much the same but i'm starting to wonder some big whys with some of the people that are always in my life. and i'm not really sure i like the things i'm noticing but i'm not sure how to change it. i don't know how to make people chance their notion of me and what i do with my life. where others i don't have to say much to they understand a part of it as much as they can if they aren't like one of us that just want to be on the road just to be out. but there are others that see me as something i'm not they see me as a failure yet hate that i have it so easy that i'm allow to go follow a band and stuff but they just don't see it the same way i do. they make chooses in there life that makes it so they are always behide in this world and can't get ahead and they do what they think is fun but you won't find me at a club on a friday night you won't find me going away for a weekend unless i'm going to meet up with people and i was gone for a 6 weeks and stayed 10 nights in hotels thats right i was gone for 45 days and out of those 35 i found a friends house to stay at.

i become to think for next tour if i find someone up to it camping real camping now i wish i could have a camper van but unless they didn't tour for 3-5 years it won't happen on my dime ( at the moment) like almost everywhere a hour or so out of a major city there are places to camp, most of those camps have showers so a tent and what not... it would be cheaper then a hotel i'm pretty sure and on top of that it's just a plan b for when there isn't a friend to stay with though in the winter that wouldn't work so well but it would be a trip for damn sure. i think my major regrate this tour is not driving more up north on the cali part and sleeping on the beach they have some great camp sites up there along the coast an hour out of the way but ... i think worth it. that and not trusting myself on going up there with out a hotel. the veune let girls camp out in the veune that night and i met a girl that would have let me sleep on her dorm room floor it was a lesson to me that i should not get hotels just for me unless i have to i will know someone or find someone or become friends with someone that is willing to put me up for a night lol.

anyways this has become a long ramble, but i'm already saving up for next tour i learned a few lessons this tour again like always and i changed like always so next time around i think i know more of what i will do again and i hope we plan it out a bit better lol to know once we get on the road we won't want to stop i did kinda good this time no last min flights out. though i now always need to remember i have somewhere to stay in minn so if i'm flying out of there i can stay an extra day or two they wouldn't mind me.

bla rambling again