Family news

Well today we got word... well kinda word, that my grandpa's brother past away. In November. That's right my family is a little disconnected you can say. Not only do some of them not have facebook or other means like that to talk to each other over the internet but they don't have up to date phone numbers for family members.

Now we haven't been super close to this side of the family since my Grandpa passed away when I was 9. But my uh great aunt ( and now the only one living out of her generation of her family) also lives in the same city. So I guess tomorrow or the next day my mom is going to break the news to her.

While it's sad a family member even how long since I can remember last seeing them past away it's a reminder everyone is getting older and older, and it's no party at all.

But i do find it a bit sad the last time i can really say i saw my grandpa's brother was after my grandpa passed away though my tears his brother just looked like my grandpa and I broke every ones heart in that room as i cried to his brother thinking it was my grandpa.

This also makes me wonder what my future holds since i don't want children and i don't plan on ever getting married ( if it was to happen it would happen but it's not something i'm working on) whats going to happen to me once i'm the old last one of my family. being the baby means unless something freakish happens there will come a point where i'm the last one standing out of my close family. It's really depressing thinking about getting older and really out living people around you. But who is to say i will remember it when i'm that old. i'm almost sure something will take my mind if i live to be 80. sounds sad but with the stuff going up in there already that causes some memory lose and hell even bad spelling ( but i don't blame the failure of me being able not to spell on it cus it was something i never could do.)

And i think this is the saddest thing about it he left a wife who isn't really there and doesn't understand when she calls for him why he doesn't come. And it's really bad to know after that it's just a downward swing. after you spend so much of your life with someone like that once they go it's a matter of how good of health they where in and how fast they let go of that. sometimes i wish i could go back to being 7 when i didn't have to deal with old people and death when everyone still felt like we had life to live.

I guess i will never be 7 again so i better buck up and deal that we will all get old and die if we are the so called lucky ones.