i hope you had the time of your life

It's funny how lives little moments can leave marks years after. I was just looking at my arm, an arm thats been with me all my life but as of right now it just has one random cut on it which i couldn't tell you how it happened or how it even got there, i have moles i've had all my life staring at me i swear they are doubling when i'm not looking. And right at my wrist where i can see my vains pop out ( which freaks me out a bit oddly) off to the side there is a dark but light grayish blackish spot. Now oddly enough i remember how i got that i was in about 4th grade with a sharp pencil and somehow i just was playing around with it and stabbed myself. Since then i've had that mark of graphite in my skin. Someone told me it would be there for the rest of my life at the time and i don't think i really believed them at all. Most days i don't think of it it's not something I notice often but when i notice i just remember to that day i jammed my wrist down on to the pencil with out any real thought in my head.

But sometimes it makes me wonder about the million little things we do in this life with out thinking twice about that leaves ever lasting marks on us. It's funny the things i could tell you about my 4th grade year so much changed for me that year in my life at home i lost my grandpa to a heart attack and at school this is the one time in my life i can remember some kids making fun of me. non of that really left a mark for anyone to see.

Oddly enough i think it was 4th grade i stapled my thumb when talking on the phone to a friend that didn't leave a mark on me though it did make some blood fly. though that same year when my sister stepped on a staple and that left blood on our celling next to where some of my old meds rytan on the celling which i can see right now ... joys of living in the house you grew up in, some marks you just never get rid of.

In all truth if my graphite in my wrist came out tomorrow i would miss it i've lived more then half of my life with that on my body now. though even if it was out i don't think i would notice for a while. Plus it took me this long to remember in the 7th grade on my other hand i also managed to stab myself with a mechanical pencil the mark is different but it's still there in my palm. ( that one i had to pull the pencil out of my palm it stayed in when i raised it from the table)

So odd to think of all the little marks life leaves on you even when your not trying and the marks that happen because of other reasons from where they removed my hibernoma on my back scar or when i got my ears pierced when in chicago in 05 on hanson tour, or the first time i got my ears pierced when i was 14 but let them close up.

I've never been one for tattoos but i believe our skin can tell stories with out them

Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while
It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life. - green day good riddance